* This Is The Plan

scared shizzless.

the race is august 3rd.

i have so much work to do. not only do i have to rush through my running program via treadmill… i have to actually go run outside. 

-which-i’ve-never-done-in-my-life.

I feel all weak and wobbly today.

My 30min nap yesterday turned into a 4 hour one… Awake long enough to put in some laundry then more sleep.

In that time I forgot to eat dinner. Which doesn’t help energy levels.

I have another run tonight which counts the second week I’ve been back at purposely exercising. I’m noticing little changes which is nice.

Emotionally I’m still a wreck. I put too much pressure on myself to balance social stuff plus work.

Maybe I’ll feel better when the sun comes out.

This to shall pass.
This to shall pass.
This to shall pass.

crying jags before 9:00am. 

Ho hum.

Mr. M sent me a Facebook message yesterday. The last contact we had was when he was inviting me out to his place on his birthday… at 2:30 in the morning.Over a year ago. 

He asked how things were going and asked for an update. I gave him one. He read the message 5 minutes after I sent it and hasn’t responded a day later.

I miss the happy illusion of people responding right away. That if they didn’t send you a message back it was because they hadn’t read it yet. 

Ho hum.

I’m not invested in the contact but he was a lovely addition to the shenanigans at the Gladstone residence. 

How times change.

One superficial example being that I bought three dresses on a trip down to the states yesterday with W. Three. Now, I guess I actually have to wear them….

bring on the nylons. 

I’ll always hold on to those little moments that made such a big impact

C is moving back to BC on the 8th of June.

So glad he’s going (better starts out there) but genuinely sad to see him go.

I’ve enjoyed his company.

I can fit into my size 12 jeans now :)

This past Fall I tried them on and couldn’t even get past my thighs. 

I feel pretty darn good.

2/16

14 weeks until back to school.

Last week was 40hrs
This week I’m adding landscape work on top of the 40.
Next week I start running x3 a week
The week after that I add studying Anatomy to my weekly adventures.

I don’t understand why I had it in my brain that I would have more time in the summer. I don’t. At all.

The difference maybe is that it’s physically exhausting vs the mental/physical of school?

Who knows.
Here we go though.

looking at house plans.

Went by the property W’s family would likely give us today… 

it’s perfect & lovely. 

also by chance found the house plans I want. 

http://www.houseplans.com/plan/2553-square-feet-4-bedrooms-3-bathroom-traditional-house-plans-2-garage-33794

It kind of goes perfectly with the barn that’s already on the property….

Hello goal for the next 2-5 years.